Someone from the outside can't begin to understand how many obstacles are placed in your path when you have been involved in any capacity with a sociopath.
There were YEARS that went in to discrediting.
Once again, I am only able to gauge from "narc speak", red flags I dismissed, and the reactions from people that aren't the "right" response.
Not only does the stress alone cause health issues that are invisible, but, if you are familiar or educated in this community, being poisoned for periods of time or drugged is not that uncommon.
It is a LITERAL fight for your life.
Imagine what it feels like to be giving everything you have and the "rumor" is that you are a lazy, hypochondriac "attention seeker"?
Imagine the anger and frustration that YOU know there was a passive aggressive "consequence" for any and all weight loss or fitness programs for YEARS...
If you try and explain it, you sound crazy but it is in fact true.
Imagine your eyes have black circles and bags... well, there is the "washed up drug addict"... It is all "smoke and mirrors" as you scream silently for understanding. You know it's health via abuse... No one listens.
Then you try and understand how, knowing how things REALLY happened, so many bought in to such a lie.
The answer is that in order to make you look bad, your strengths were the things that had to be "opposed".
I can pretty much assure you that most rumors are probably the exact opposite of how they appear. THAT is where the strength is found to move forward... you know your strengths and so do they.
With all the damage done, it still feels like a huge weight around your ankle. But, you go. Every time you pull that "ankle" forward, you are pissed that it was done TO you.
THAT is what they don't want the outside to know.
They still have a hold with the smear campaign and the flying monkeys... just to "remind" you and drag you back in with their twisted mind fuckery.
Remember the "magicians game", what you don't see is where the truth lies.
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